Thankful..

Thankful, that word doesn't seem to do my heart justice this year. So many things to be thankful for this year that my heart feels like it might just explode with gratitude towards a merciful God. I wanted to tell a story... Because of my sickness during my pregnancy I hadn't been able to go shopping and buy anything for Ella, then when she was diagnosed with two very severe heart defects and a small chance to live, I was torn on if I should buy anything if I got the chance. I never wanted to give up on her, but I also didn't want a room full of baby things to look at and dream about if those dreams weren't going to come true. So one day Jon and I were in a store briefly, and I saw the perfect little outfit, it was so beautiful... It looked like an outfit for an angel. It was for a baby 3 to 6 months, I wanted to buy it, but I was afraid she would never get to wear it. I made the decision to have trust that God would hold my heart regardless of the outcome... it was emotional to buy the first thing for Ella. It may seem silly to others, but I had been on the safe side of the fence up until that point, and crossing over into the full fledged planning on her to live emotionally was difficult. After buying that outfit there were many moments of tears as I held it or looked at it... wondering. I sit here with tears in my eyes and a beyond thankful heart as I can announce that Ella wore that outfit for her first thanksgiving as a happy 3 1/2 month old baby!!!! The Lord has been so merciful on our family this year! What a miracle, GOD IS SO GOOD!!!