Friday, November 26, 2010

Thankful..








Thankful, that word doesn't seem to do my heart justice this year. So many things to be thankful for this year that my heart feels like it might just explode with gratitude towards a merciful God. I wanted to tell a story... Because of my sickness during my pregnancy I hadn't been able to go shopping and buy anything for Ella, then when she was diagnosed with two very severe heart defects and a small chance to live, I was torn on if I should buy anything if I got the chance. I never wanted to give up on her, but I also didn't want a room full of baby things to look at and dream about if those dreams weren't going to come true. So one day Jon and I were in a store briefly, and I saw the perfect little outfit, it was so beautiful... It looked like an outfit for an angel. It was for a baby 3 to 6 months, I wanted to buy it, but I was afraid she would never get to wear it. I made the decision to have trust that God would hold my heart regardless of the outcome... it was emotional to buy the first thing for Ella. It may seem silly to others, but I had been on the safe side of the fence up until that point, and crossing over into the full fledged planning on her to live emotionally was difficult. After buying that outfit there were many moments of tears as I held it or looked at it... wondering. I sit here with tears in my eyes and a beyond thankful heart as I can announce that Ella wore that outfit for her first thanksgiving as a happy 3 1/2 month old baby!!!! The Lord has been so merciful on our family this year! What a miracle, GOD IS SO GOOD!!!

11 comments:

  1. Perfect! Thank you so much for sharing the pictures. Every time I come to your blog and see Miss Ella's bright eyes my heart sings. I can't look at her face without smiling. She is so precious. You guys are living moment by moment in a reality that is really true for us all...our children belong to God. He allows us to borrow them for awhile and we only assume that they will be here for a very long time. I pray for you all daily, actually several times a day. I pray for continued good health for you and Ella. I pray for physical and emotional strength as you face each day. I pray for courage as you face each new challenge and as you await the upcoming surgery.

    God's plan is perfect even though we don't understand. 'When you can't trace His hand, trust His heart.'

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  2. I'm so thankful for Ella's life. And I can't wait to kiss and squeeze her!!!! Oh, and by the way...if this baby's a girl, we are totally borrowing that outfit! :)

    Love,

    Aunt Kristina

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  3. Beautiful Story.... I have tears in my eyes. Your family is an amazing inspiration of faith. Thank you for sharing.

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  4. Praise the Lord!! What an amazing Thanksgiving :) so thankful for you three & that God is soooooooooo GOOD! Love you!!

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  5. Thank you for sharing your joy with us! We are so very grateful to God as He continue to make Himself known in every detail.
    She is beyond beautiful!
    With love,
    The Crawleys

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  6. Peta from AustraliaNovember 27, 2010 at 4:09 AM

    So many terrible losses have happened to friends of mine in the last few days, that comming to your blog and seeing miss ella dressed as the earthly angel that she eases my heart a little. She is such a reminder that good things happen in this world, seeing Ella looking so well brings so much joy to me..

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  7. What a beautiful, beautiful baby--and a beautiful family. I've been following Ella's amazing journey since Jen Weintraub took her pictures right after her birth. You are doing a wonderful job caring for Ella. She is a lucky and blessed little girl in so many ways.

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  8. I love it! Beautiful family and a beautiful miracle!

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  9. And she looks SO beautiful in it! It makes my heart so happy to hear that she is doing so well. What an amazing gift from God!

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  10. Beautiful baby girl, beautiful family. God bless you all!

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  11. I cry every time I read a post of Ella's triumphs, but especially today. I have yet to buy anything for the baby I am expecting...
    I have a complication that could cause me to lose the baby at any time during the pregnancy. It is truly a waiting game.
    I have thought the same thoughts you voiced in your post. Thank you for sharing that. It is good, once again, to see how merciful and faithful our God is.
    -Randa
    (friend of your sister Amy's, from nursing school)

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